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Sunday, February 19th, 2006
10:10 pm	im sitting in the apartment in nyc right now, watching greys anatomy. I cant believe that in less than 3 months i will be living here. things have been so crazy for me the past few years Im always saying..I cant believe that_____. But I guess thats the way life goes. All of the changes have been great though. In less than 3 weeks S and I will be on our way to Jamaica!!! woohoo!! Im so excited, I cant wait to get out of this cold weather and frolic on the beach with my love. Since Ive been here I havent been able to see my sweet catty. I miss him so much!! I feel so bad leaving him all alone in the apartment. But he will be ok, as always. What else is new...I am almost done with school!!! I will finally have my masters degree after all these years. i am getting way to old. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
5:17 pm	I am in the best mood right now. I got 2 papers back today, and they were both A's. That's so awesome. I havent been at my field placement in 6 weeks. Well, I was there last Wednesday but I almost died. We were hanging out in the office at around 10, when the office lady came over the announcements telling all the teachers to keep the students in the rooms and lock the doors. So we peeked our heads out the door to see what was going on, and they screamed "get in the room and lock the doors, we have an emergency!" so at this point we are freaking out. My supervisor called because she was on the way to the school and said that there were 15 cop cars outside and the blinds to the main office were shut. So one of the girls called one of the teachers room to find out what was going on. She said that one of the students had a gun and threatened to shoot one of the teachers. I have never been so scared in my life. I seriously thought we were going to die right there in that office. Eventually everything calmed down and they found the boy hiding on the second floor in the computer lab. Me and the other intern left before we found out if they found a gun or what happened. That was seriously nerve-racking. In better news-S got a job in NYC!!!! We are so excited and I am so proud of him. But its also sad because I have to live here for a year while he lives there so I can finish school. But it will be ok. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
5:29 pm	i havent updated in so long. im such a bad girl. so much has happened since last time i wrote. my grandfather died on january 31. it all happened so fast. when i went home for my remicade in november i went out to dinner with him. went i went home two months later for my remicade again, i was going to his funeral. but i guess thats how brain cancer goes. it still really weird. at least once a day i stop and think, i cant believe he died. its just so weird. before he was diagnosed he was so healthy and active. its really sad. also, my bum of a brother is now moving into his house, which has caused many fights between my family and i. my brother and my grandfather hated each other-he would NOT want my brother living there. but as usual he is getting what he wants. in better news- s got the most fantastic job in nyc. it feels like its been a long time coming and im so happy for him. so now we will have to live apart for a year while i finish school. i dont know how im gonna handle that-it will be so sad. weve never been apart for such an extended amount of time. since the day weve met weve been together. but we'll be fine. i know it. thats really everything thats been going on. im so sick of school, i cant wait for spring break so i can finally sleep. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 16th, 2004
1:05 pm	shes alive ALIVE!! I am still here. really I am. Ive been so busy lately with school and everything, which by the way, really sucks. there is soo much writing i cant even stand it. 3 more weeks until winter break, and i am not doing anything except sleep! and also to update...i love my internship. it is the best experience of my life. i love those kids so much. other than that, nothing else has been happening, just lots and lots of school. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
4:57 pm	i laid out in the sun yesterday and got a pretty good sunburn on my front, complete with sunglasses tan lines and all. since it was nice today i figured i'd go to the beach and lay on my stomach so the back of my legs (tan) could catch up with the front. Big mistake. i now have the worst sunburn on my back and legs. i dont remember having a sunburn this bad since i was a kid. and i wasnt even at the beach for very long! (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 29th, 2004
6:36 pm	im feeling much better about my internship now, although i still don't want to do it there. s is having such a hard time at work and it's killing me. he's so busy and then he has to come home and write cover letters, and i'm always asking him to help me with something. he really hates that place. when we're both done with school we want to live in syracuse so i guess it doesn't really matter anyways. i just wish he could enjoy it because it's really ruining his summer. i love him so much. aww. ok enough mushy stuff, there must be something for me to bitch about. i don't feel really good today. i havent taken either of my meds in a few days, i have no idea why, and i bet thats the reason. once school starts, its going to be such a pain in the ass to go home for my remicade infusions. i dont know what im gonna do when i start working. i cant really take a whole day off work just so i can get my infusion. thats really unreasonable, even by my standards. hopefully by then they will have some new miracle drug and i wont have to go through any of this anymore. its getting really annoying. at first it was like ok i'll deal with it. but now im sick of dealing with it. i wish it would just go away. i cant believe this is something that i'll have to live with for the rest of my life. i thought i had come to terms with the whole thing, but i guess not. although i believe i am almost there. i'll work something out i know. and its comforting to know that s is always there for me. he definitely helps alot. i must remember to get my car inspected by saturday!! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
1:23 pm	and i just saw that the last line of that previous entry made absolutely no sense whatsoever. (Comment on this)
1:19 pm	i dont think it could be possible for me to be any more pissed off at the school than i am right now. the original place they set up for my internship decided that they cant take a student now. so the lady from school called me yesterday and was like "well, we'll have to find somewhere else to put you". i got to choose from like 3 places, none of which were even close to dealing with anything i wanted to do for a career. so now i am stuck driving down to the city to work in a public school with kids who have problems. thats a far cry from any mental health place that i would love to be at. that school fucking sucks. i cannot even stress how utterly im pissed off right at this moment. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 26th, 2004
10:17 am	THIS SUCKS!!!! we went saturady to look for an apartment, finally at 7:30pm we found one we liked. It was in the perfect location, was beautiful, allowed cats, but was just a little more than we wanted to pay. but we figured we had no chpoice since there was nothing else. so we told the guy we would let him know today. so just to make sure i call one last place. we already know what it looks like because we drove by it on saturday. so i call not thinking anything will come of it. turns out they have one avail. when we need it, allow cats, and the rent is only $599mo. all util. included +cable. the rent at the other place is $600mo. and doesnt include any util. so now were stuck. i dont want to drive all the way back there just to look at 1 apartment, but it seems like such a better deal. i dont know what to do! (Comment on this)
Friday, July 23rd, 2004
2:25 pm	so tomorrow were going to look for our new apartment. i thought i did such a good job coming up with a list of potential places, but now that i look at it, there are only 3 places that have any potential. oh well, its hard to find an apartment when you dont actually live in that city. my whole family is now at my grammas, all my aunts and uncles and cousins. im glad i dont have to go home for anything, i really hate family stuff. its so boring, and i see them a lot actually. ive been so tired lately i cant even stand it. i tires me out to make the bed in the morning, which really sucks because i never even want to get out of bed. i hope im not having a flare up, but it seems as though i am. i have been feeling quite shitty lately (no pun intended) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 20th, 2004
3:22 pm	I HATE SEARCHING FOR APARTMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Comment on this)
Friday, July 9th, 2004
2:28 pm	1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "Sophie's directions proved to be accurate." 2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. hit the side of the computer desk 3) What is the last thing you watched on TV? days of our lives 4) WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is. 2:30 5) Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? 2:32 6) With the exception of the computer,what can you hear? complete silence 7) When did you last step outside? about 20 minutes ago 8) Before you came to this website, what did you look at? msn.com 9) What are you wearing? black ribbed tee shirt, green pants, black flip flops 10) Did you dream last night? i know i did, but i cant remember exactly what 11) When did you last laugh? on the phone with s 12) What is on the walls of the room you are in? framed pictures 14) Last movie you saw? cold mountain (i cried like a baby) 15) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? a huge house 16) Tell me something about you that I don't know: i have extreme panic attacks when im stuck in traffic 17) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? ummm good question 18) Do you like to dance? Yes. 19) George Bush: president 20) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Makenna 21) [Same question for a boy] Christian 22) Would you ever consider living abroad? yes..i would love to go to italy (Comment on this)
2:11 pm	so i was in the library a few weeks ago and i saw this book that was written by this guy whos from my hometown, and on the cover is one of those mile markers with the name of my hometown on it. i got it and showed it to my gramma nd she wanted me to steal it! but i told her i couldn't so i ordered it for her from amazon. the lowest price for the book was 1 cent. how crazy is that, i penny for the book. i figured it was probably gross so i got her the one that was $1. she'll be so excited. (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 8th, 2004
4:50 pm	i finally got my tb test taken care of and i just dropped it in the mail so now i dont have to worry about it anymore. i talked to my internship lady the other day and she was so nice so now im really excited about starting. it's going to be so weird being in grad school. i keep calling it big girl school. i hope its as easy as undergrad. im also so pissed about my cell phone ticket. they tell me one thing and then i call back the next day and someone else tells me another. at least i dont have to pay by mail..it would have been $135. im hoping that when i go there they will just throw it out like my other one. i really need to stop getting tickets. even though i had both of them dismissed last year, which is great. i think were going home tomorrow (big suprise i know) but this will seriously be the last time that we will be able to go home for a while. next weekend we have to go and look for our new apartment. i hate moving! but it will be so nice to get out of binghamton, its so boring here and i dont know anyone. im also excited to get back to work. i cant believe i actually miss that place, but i really do. ugh i have such a headache! (Comment on this)
Friday, July 2nd, 2004
11:10 am	so jen is coming tonight from georgia to get mia :( my mom is going to be devastated. i dont want her to leave either. that also means that me and s are going home this weekend. weve gone home every weekend for the last month. its getting to be sooo expensive. i got my placement for my internship for next year. i seriously cried when i saw it because not only did i think it was working with old people, but its also at the place where i worked for 1 day and then quit because it was so awful. well i looked it up on the internet and its not old people (not that i dont like old people, i just dont want to work with them). so thats good. and its not the same place exactly that i worked but they are the same company, just different locations serving different clients. I dont know if i should call the school next week and talk to someone about this because if they realize i did that, this whole next year could potentially go down really bad. then again, we are expected to accept the place where they put us (which is ridiculous), so i dont know if calling would make any difference. oh well ill figure it out this weekend i guess. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 15th, 2004
3:09 pm	long time no write wow, i havent updated this bad boy in almost a year. im such a bad girl. nothing new has been happening anyways. umm lets see....were in our new apartment which is so much bigger than the last one, i graduated from school!(finally) my mom had her hysterectomy last month so she is still off work and recouperating, my niece is home from georgia so ive been spending a lot of time at home so i can be with her. she hasnt gotten much bigger but boy is she still the cutest thing in the world. i love her so much, i wish she could stay here forever. me and s are still together and better than ever. hes the best. other than that theres not too much to even update about. i really should start writing in here more often. its good to be able to look back on things and be like "oh yea i remember that" so thats my summer resolution-to write more in my livejournal. Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 16th, 2003
10:41 am	children book's that you'll never see Pop Goes the Hamster...And Other Great Microwave Games You were an Accident Strangers Have the Best Candy The Little Sissy Who Snitched Some Kittens Can Fly Getting More Chocolate on Your Face Where Would You Like to be Buried? Kathy Was So Bad Her Mommy Stopped Loving Her All Dogs Go To Hell The Kids' Guide to Hitchhiking When Mommy and Daddy Don't Know the Answer, They Say God Did It Garfield Gets Feline Leukemia What Is That Dog Doing to That Other Dog? Why Can't Mr. Fork and Ms. Electrical Outlet Be Friends? Bi-Curious George Daddy Drinks Because You Cry Mister Policeman Eats His Service Revolver You Are Different and That's Bad Daddy's New Wife, Timothy Testing Homemade Parachutes Using Only Your Household Pets The Hardy Boys, the Barbie Twins, and the Vice Squad Who Shat in the Hat? Barney Meets the Taxidermist Curious George and the High-Voltage Fence The Boy Who Died from Eating His Vegetables Start a Real-Estate Empire With the Change From Your Mommy's Purse The Pop-up Book of Human Anatomy Things Rich Kids Have, But You Never Will The Care Bears Maul Some Campers and are Shot Dead How to Become The Dominant Military Power In Your Elementary School Fun Four-Letter Words to Know and Share Grandpa Gets a Casket Eggs, Toilet Paper, and Your School Your Colon Can Moo - Can You? The Fox in Detox Places Where Mommy and Daddy Hide Neat Things The Magical World Inside the Abandoned Refrigerator (Comment on this)
Monday, March 3rd, 2003
12:38 pm	i dont get why everything has to be a pain in the ass (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 25th, 2003
2:59 pm	im in the library at school...i feel so sneaky (Comment on this)
Friday, February 21st, 2003
12:39 pm	I know this is a little late but....... TRISTA PICKED RYAN!!!!!!! I love him so much.mmmm so sexy. I also love reality tv. but what is up with the show are you hot or not. or whatever its called. that is ridiculously stupid. (Comment on this)